Wednesday, May 12, 2010

khabar sun kar tere jane ki....
















khabar sun kar tere jane ki hum bhari mehfil chod kar chale aaye
waqt se pahunchne ko tere dar pe hum sare raah daudte chale aaye

shayad mere talvon se nikle khoon ke nishaan aaj bhi ho un rahon par
par tere paas aane ko hum woh rahein humesha ke liye chod chale aaye

poochte ho mujh se yaaron mein kyon hoon nashe mein choor
koi unse bhi jaake pooche jo humein apni aankhon se pilakar chale aaye

ji uth gaya is jahan se kuch aisa
ki khud apni hi khabar khod kar chale aaye

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

little joys, boundless happiness

Little acts of kindness, little words of love
little smiles of acknowledgement
make life lively and beautiful

little deeds of sincerity, litttle days of rain
little nights of deep slumber
make life lively and beautiful

little comedy of jokes, little tragedies of life
little struggles to triumph
make life lively and beautiful

little moments of ecstacy, little periods of pain
little shoulders of support
make life lively and beautiful

little fits of passion, little words of compassion
little years of mischief
make life lively and beautiful

This little gives us so much
then why complain for having so little

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Sitting ducks

On April 6th 2010 in a gruesome and bloodiest attack so far Naxalites killed 76 CRPF men in forests of Mukrana (Dantewada distt of Chattisgarh). To the Nation it meant a loss of few valiant soldiers from the existing lot, but to their families they lost their bread winner and most importantly their dear son.

Chandramouleshwar Reddy coming from Rayalseema village in Andhra Pradesh battled all through his life against poverty but his battle came to an abrupt end when he along with his 75 other fellow soldiers fell to the Maoists bullets on April 6th. He left behind 2 school going children, a wife and his ageing parents who still can’t believe that nature has played such cruel game with them. To die while protecting the sovereignty of the Nation is every soldier’s dream, but alas! On April 6th those 76 CRPF men didn’t die in a counter insurgency operation against Naxalites. They were gunned down in the early hours of morning while they were resting in their camps. The jawans of 62 battalion of CRPF turned out to be sitting ducks for the blood thirsty Maoists who made headlines by carrying out this cowardly attack on unsuspecting and ill prepared CRPF jawans.

Our prime minister declared the Naxalite problem as single biggest threat to the security of the nation way back in 2006, but little progress has been made to counter the growth of this obnoxious weed of naxalism. Home ministry puts the death toll in naxalite violence since 2006 as more than 2800(and still counting), these numbers depict an immensely brutal story of maoist violence in India. The numbers are shocking as well as depressing at the same time, almost 220 districts in India belonging to 22 different states are suffering from naxalite attacks, accounting for 40% India’s geographical area. Unfortunately the ground realities don’t compliment the big assurances that come from the ministry of Home affairs. The forces employed to tackle Naxalites in India lack both the capability as well as the facilities to tackle Naxalities. 24 battalions have been deployed in Chattisgarh -14 from CRPF, and five each from BSF and ITBP however it is well known that around 8-10 more battalions are required for the security forces to dominate. An Hindustan Times story (Are these Men up to it?- April 11 2010) mentions that distance between 2 CRPF camps is 15-30 km, if there is an attack on one CRPF camp the reinforcements are not expected to reach in time. The forces working in the plains of Dantewada live in most adverse conditions possible for defense forces. There is a complete lack of basic amenities for security forces situated there, no proper housing facilities, no clean drinking water available and besides this there is a severe shortage of proper sanitation facilities. Lakhwinder Singh, a jawan posted at Chintagufa says “Even if we want to take an ailing comrade to nearby hospital the Naxalities would blow our vehicle off”. This statement is a serious cause to worry because under such unhygienic conditions diseases like malaria and brain fever are found to be extremely common. It is hard to imagine that troops that have been employed to tackle “single biggest threat to national security” are being provided with such deplorable living conditions and then to expect the CRPF men to overpower Naxalities under such conditions would be mere foolishness. The news story that a committee headed by a former CRPF DGP to look into the 6th April Dantewada massacre came under heavy attack from Naxalities speaks volumes about the hold and dominance that Naxalities have in these areas. Wikipedia claims that Naxalities have virtual control over an estimated area of 92,000 sq kilometers which is popularly termed as the Red corridor. The gravity of the situation is alarming and can be easily ascertained from the fact that Naxalities annually collect around 1500 crore rupees through extortions, kidnappings, etc in order to run their operations in India. These figures are far worse than what Government wants us to believe. Maoists are attempting to take over all the rich mining areas in Jharkhand, Chattisgarh, and Madhya pradesh which would mean that development work would very obviously take a back seat in these areas, which are already suffering from lack of development from past so many years. Such atmosphere where there is a lack of proper education system and an absence of growth and development it is easy to brain wash people against the state and convince them to take up arms against Govt. under the pretext of demanding justice for poor people. This Maoist insurgency is leading India to a death by bleeding through a thousand cuts, a slow but sure death. On top of that the current counter-insurgency strategy employed against Naxals is doing more harm to the security forces than to the Naxalites. The strategy such as ‘clear, hold and develop is found unsuccessful here, the reason being lack of knowledge of the terrain amongst security forces, gross shortage of condign resources, ill trained soldiers and minimal reinforcement chances. Unfortunately these circumstances give a cumulative effect as seen on 6th April in Dantewada.

Whenever our brave security people are slaughtered at the hands of Naxalites the entire blame is placed on ‘intelligence failure, lack of coordination between central and state forces and neglect of standard operating procedures. However, under the current circumstances the debacle like Dantewada are bound to occur again and we would still refuse to learn from our mistakes. But alas! It would again be our brave soldiers in CPMF (central paramilitary forces) who would be made the sacrificial lambs. Sometimes I wonder that how unfortunate these CRPF men are, they are paid peanuts, don’t have basic amenities which are easily available to other elite forces engaged in counter-insurgency operations across the Globe and then they are made to fight an enemy who is better prepared, has tremendous resources to last them through this never ending war, is high on confidence and is excessively lethal in its attack. This situation reminds me of the title of a Tom Cruise starrer Hollywood movie “Lions for Lambs”. Indeed we are feeding our brave heart Lions (security forces) to these cowardly lambs (Naxlalites).

Monday, April 26, 2010

The tragedy of being a Kashmiri Pandit

Even now I remember the day vividly it was an hot and sultry April afternoon, the ringing school bell indicated that it was time to pack your bags and leave towards the amniotic safety of a heaven called Home. As I stepped out of the mammoth black gate of my school ‘Army school Damana’ I saw an old lady sitting on a log of wood on the other side of the road. Her face was all smeared with wrinkles, her dainty hands placed firmly under her chin and a pair of deep set blue eyes looking aimlessly nowhere.

I went to her and asked her in my not so fluent Kashmiri why she was sitting all alone in such hot summer afternoon? To which she politely replied that she was waiting for her grandson who studied in 3rd standard in my school. I asked her where she lived; “Purkhoo camp” was her answer almost as an afterthought. For next half hour that old lady showed me a picture of KP migration to which I was never exposed. Being born and brought up in Jammu I was spared of a gruesome atrocity inflicted on Kashmiri pundits called the migration of 89-90.But talking to her for next half an hour brought me face to face with the bitter picture of our exodus. Her voice had a deep but perpetual undercurrent of pain as she mentioned the sleepless nights she along with her family spent in hot and humid conditions of migrant camps, of which they had no before hand experience. Her eyes welled up with emotion while she told me about the loss of her husband to sun stroke who couldn’t survive the cruel and unforgiving summer of Jammu and Kashmir’s winter capital. She said that she dies a thousand deaths every day to see her post graduate son leave for a non descript carpet factory in bari brahmna where he works as an accountant. She lamented that with the kind of education his son has had it is such a shame that he has to do such a meager job to earn a square meal for his family. I clearly remember that she took a pause, probably lost in deep thought or perhaps she got stuck in a nostalgic moment. After a few moments she looked into my eyes as if to stare down directly into my soul and said “son do you know what the greatest tragedy with our community is? I replied with a stoic “no”. she said that the greatest tragedy to have happened to us wasn’t the religious cleansing of pundits before migration nor was the exodus of pundits from Kashmir but the greatest tragedy to have happened to us is that we are born kashmiri Pandits in this ‘riyasat’. The government doesn’t care for us because we are not a compact and significant vote bank, the common Kashmiri Muslim whom we trusted blindly before the migration stabbed us slyly on our back, our children who are both suitably talented and well educated don’t find jobs here because of their surnames. The locals of Jammu could never and still can’t accept as one amongst them because to them we are ‘Kashmiri’. It is hard to imagine a condition worse than this; all this while I kept looking at her withered face and kept imagining the pain and anguish she carried in her frail body. How hard it was to step into her shoes and to see the world from her eyes, how difficult it was to imagine her family clinging to each other in a corner of their one room hutment to save themselves from rain water dripping from their leaky roof. To reproduce her emotions on a piece of paper, the helplessness in her eyes, the pain behind her quivering lips is impossible. Just when I was about to leave I saw a cute little boy running towards us with a notebook in his hand, he stopped at the old lady and said “jigri look madam gave me a good in my notebook”. I saw that four letter word written in red ink in the notebook, it brought an instant smile on the face of that old lady, a weak but genuine smile. She lifted the notebook and kissed it. I couldn’t help but smile at the ironic but beautiful ending to our conversation. Sometimes I feel if ever a research is conducted on Kashmiri Pandits the scientists would find a lot of rubber in our composition. Even after going through such heavy turmoil we have not only survived but also excelled in our respective fields, which is a great achievement in itself. However whenever I read or hear kashmiri pundits assembling at jantar mantar or India Gate striving to bring murderers of Priyadarshini Mattoo to justice or whenever a Nadimarg or Wandhama massacre happens and the consequent callous approach of the government towards us her words start ringing in my head “son! Our greatest tragedy is that we are born Kashmiri Pandits”.

Few days back I received an e mail from a friend of mine, it was titled “result of inter-caste marriage, funny”. I clicked open that mail It went something like this “The only problem with inter caste marriage is that ………………….…… then there was a picture of a donkey and a zebra with a progeny of theirs. It had black and white strips on its legs which are the very characteristic of zebras but its torso and the rest of the upper body was muddy brown as that of donkeys.

And the message above the picture continued like this ………….it’s always the kids that suffer. Frankly it didn’t make me laugh but surely sent me into a contemplative mode. In Last 2 years I saw 2 of my dearest cousins get married into Bengali community both of them are blessed with a caring, affectionate and sensitive spouse. However after reading this mail I thought but what about their kids? What would be their identity? I have always taken pride in being a Kashmiri pandit, I love my language, my culture, the rituals (in spite of the fact that I am not very ritualistic).But what would my nephews be, which culture would they follow, what would be their mother tongue? Such and many more similar questions make me shudder. This recent trend of inter-caste marriages has inflicted great wounds on us causing both genetic dilution and general loss of cultural values. History suggests that all great civilizations came to an end at some point of time, even the culturally rich and visionary Aryans didn’t survive through test of time. Their annihilation gave rise to many small but consequential communities, may be our community is also walking down the same lane towards its end. I not being unnecessarily worried but the signs are too obvious and are written in bold letters on the wall. Any community derives its identity from its geographic distinction, a common belief system, a mother tongue and a religion to bind the community together. Kashmiri pandits lost their homeland in 1989-90 when they were driven out of the valley in herds. Now Kps are scattered in jammu, Delhi, Pune, Bangalore and other parts of the world as refugees they have accepted their present land as their abode (temporary or permanent I don’t know ) so they have lost their geographic distinction. As far as belief system is concerned our values are dying a sudden and tragic death, our rituals and festivals find no place in the lives on the generation next, and to them these things sound both illogical and obsolete. As far as mother tongue is concerned kashmiri speaking is growingly becoming unpopular amongst children, teenagers and young adults. Today when a child is born in a kashmiri household the entire focus of the family is to teach the child to speak fluent English. Doubtlessly this would help the young one to get through school will land him/her in a decent job the globalised Indian market. But in this race to grow big and bigger every day we keep forgetting that it is impossible to grow upwards if you are not firmly attached to your roots. Strangely parents who keep moaning every now and then, about loss of our cultural values never encourage their children to speak kashmiri or teach them the significance of our cultural values. When I look at these parameters the only conclusion that I can come up with is that our community is heading towards a never ending bottomless abyss.

I am well aware of the fact that I am ending this article with a lot of questions but to find the answers let us all look deep inside ourselves and act now because for us this is a fight for our survival.